My lonely heart, my very lonely heart, my very very very lonely heart (haha... alright you get the picture)
Sometime in 2015 (in April to be precise), I was going through a lot of negative emotions, I would wake up in the mornings to get ready for work feeling so down and sad. Then I would go through the whole day feeling alone and by myself (although I was surrounded by over 60 work colleagues on my floor), when I came back home to my family, I still felt so alone- these times I go to bed crying (don’t ask me why I was crying- for no reason at all).
Suddenly, it dawned on me that I was suffering from this deadly disease called loneliness- God forbid.
This loneliness, where did you come from, I remember asking myself?
See, I honestly could not place where this negative emotion came from, I did not understand why I felt so alone-actually I lie, I know where it came from.
As a single 20 something year old in this day and age, I found myself measuring up my life to the highlight reel of others- “you know the usual #OUTWITHBAE and all the other Bae hashtags”. I got so engrossed in this whole IDEA that I had to be someone to feel whole, to feel normal, and to belong, so when this was not my reality, my little best friend came knocking (LONELINESS).
Feeling loneliness from time to time as a single person is normal, it only became a problem for me when I decided to focus on it. I realised that loneliness was just a feeling, a common feeling which could easily be controlled.
It was not an easy task trying to snap back to my old and normal self. Here are some of the things I did to control my emotions;
Find out why you are feeling lonely- I did not belong, No one loved me
Realise that loneliness is just a feeling- usually triggered by thought or memory. All I had to do was fight the thought when it came.
Talk to a trust worthy friend- speaking to close friends and family members really helped me a lot, I felt loved and cared for.
Distract yourself- this was a quick and effective way of dealing with loneliness- I started working out.
Finally become more active.
So if in this season of love, you are feeling alone, please remember it is only just a stupid feeling that can be easily controlled.
God loves you and is always there for you, you are never alone- REMEMBER THAT!
1 John 4 vs 7- “Beloved, let us love one another, for love is from God and whoever loves has been born of God and knows God”
P.s- these photos were taken in SOHO, LONDON. It happened to be the day before my accident- Woow! I had no idea what was waiting for me the next day. I thank God for his love, his unending love.
Turtle Neck Top- ASOS | Trousers- Topshop
Until Next Time Guys, Happy Valentines Day